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PROZAC NATION by Elizabeth Wurtzel.
Read it in 1996; was depressed, got even more depressed.
read a review by Douglas A. Smith:
As Sigmund Freud said, two of the most important aspects of anyone’s life are love and work. When Elizabeth Wurtzel did well in these areas of her life, she was happy – and with no help from psychiatry. When her life went poorly, she was despondent or “depressed,” whether or not she was taking Prozac and lithium or other psychiatric drugs or undergoing other psychiatric “therapy.” Whether she realizes it or not, her 368 page memoir illustrates that her salvation, both before and after Prozac, came from living a life she enjoyed, not from any of psychiatry’s so-called therapies.
now a new movie with Christina Ricci. have not watched it. dunno whether it’d be any good like Girl, Interrupted. now, this is one movie and book that i can watch and read again and again. but prozac nation? … never mind.
i can’t sleep. it’s slightly after 3am. i can’t sleep. i can’t sleeeeeeep …
just want a new day to begin. so that i can sort things out. like finding out what kind of offer am i getting from these people who interviewed me on thursday.
argh.
ok. now i must sleep.
actually that is not really the question if you don’t have money in the bank.
like i mentioned in earlier posts, i am currently jobless and am actively looking for a job. i hv been on a few interviews these past two months. and just when i thought things couldn’t get any worse, it did … well, depends on how you look at it.
basically, i’ve been offered a job by the people that interviewed me yesterday. i dunno why, but i had a feeling that they were going to call me about something or to negotiate, coz i got through to the second interview. but i dunno … it’s not exactly the ideal situation coz i am a bit wary of working for a singaporean company. been there, done that. but on the plus side, it is very near my house, and i really do need to pay my bills. so, phew … i was kinda hoping they wouldn’t offer me since they said my asking salary was a bit high.
so this afternoon, someone called me and called me and called me. i didn’t pick up the phone coz i was just feeling so ambivalent. i didn’t want to say something that i might regret. so, i checked my email and true enough, like i suspected, they emailed me asking me to pick up my offer letter. argh. so i dunno. i emailed back asking them to email the details, or i would pick it up early tomorrow morning (they work on a saturday???? … groaaaan). so, sigh. what do i do, what do i do, what do i do … i guess i just have to read the letter. argh.
is this a test, God? why are you giving me these difficult choices. (incidentally, yesterday, i was a bit angry at God. i know i shouldn’t be. maybe it was PMS but i was just so angry at the world. so, i don’t know whether this job offer is a blessing or the opposite.
