i am watching privileged. that series abt two rich brats and their tutor living in palm springs. i love it. reminds me of gilmore girls, which i used to watch but then it got boring when mama lorelei got together with the cafe guy.and i think that will/megan hookup is ‘totally hot’. will has this very restrained sexuality. i’d like to believe he’s like that in real life. oh, well. sigh.

one of my close friends have moved into a whole new sphere, accepting a partnership complete with luxury company car. at 36, she’s achieved so much more than i have. she’s happy, content … even though she’s single right now. honestly, i am rather envious. not just a little envious. but a lot envious. eventhough, i am in a relationship, and she is not … well, at least she’s got her cat living with her. my bf and i are separated by the South China Sea. plus, it’s not like our relationship is progressing anyway. but actually, if i am totally honest … it is progressing slightly in terms of i dunno … it’s just sthing very subtle. more effort. more trust. i guess. it’s true wht they say … absence does make the heart grow fonder.

and distance … actually gives me more time to agonise about my future/career.

stimes, i feel like i need to see a psychiatrist/counsellor … coz i’m just really confused and anxious. i am in a job that doesn’t challenge my IQ. and i feel like i’m a loser coz i’m not paid as much as i am supposed to be paid.

and thing is … at the moment, i am not that happy abt this job. abt being here. i won’t go into the details but lets’ just say … it’s time to look for another job. sigh.