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watched my first movie in brunei. hahaha. believe it or not.
went to the mall in gadong. being a pj girl, i hv to say … i do miss PJ, yo!
there’s only 4 movies shown and they’re all kinda … well, not so exciting. terminator, night at the museum, syurga cinta and one other movie which i can’t remember.
so, anyway … watched night at the museum 2 … wow … not bad actually. personally, i don’t really care too much for ben stiller. but in this movie, he’s not bad. looks kinda sad, as per character. or maybe he just is. none of that usual wise-cracking attitude.
basically it’s about ben stiller’s character, i think his name is luke daley (cant even remember! thats how memorable it was! heheh) who is now a rich entrepreneur/inventor whose museum buddies are getting shipped off to the smithsonian. but the mischievous monkey took away the egyptian table which gives them life. so of course he has to go to the smithsonian to rescue them and return the tablet as theres an evil egyptian king who wants the tablet to dominate the world and beyond. so, he became a night watchman (impersonating) to gain access and met amelia earhart who is kinda his love interest shop passing in the night thing. i love ricky gervais in this movie. he’s always funny.
of course, it’s not that great … but okay for a night out at the cinema.
the theatres are smaller but that’s understandable.
but i do miss the movie theatres in pj. lots more choices. and also you can get hot dogs, etc . here they only offer popcorns. so, we had to smuggle some food in. hahahahahah. heck, i was hungry, ok!
but hey, it’s the first time i’ve ever gone to see a movie early and went home early. amazing.
anyway, i called bf afters … and told him how much i miss our movie date nights. it’s a ritual with us. we get the snacks somewhere else, if we have time. crisps and chocs. for him, those jelly babies, worm stuff. he loves that! and nips. and mineral water also … and of course wet wipes!!!!
if we have had dinner before, we don’t go crazy on the snacks.
favourite places is midori at the curve for fast japanese bento sets. i love the green tea with vanilla ice cream. ummmm…yum.
i guess i do love my bf. or do i just love these familiar rituals?
but guess what, just last year, i kept complaining that all we do is watch movies. lololol!
the grass is alwayyyyyys greeener on the other side. yo!
anyway, it’s not even midnight yet and the night seeems soooo long.
i guess it’s coz i don’t have a tv. and the temptation to buy one is veryyyy strong. but honestly, i don’t watch much stuff on rtb. mostly tv2. and i don’t have any of those aerial sockets. so … it’s a risk. but i guess, it would be nice to have some noise in this room.
hmmm … we’ll see.
today has been a particularly rewarding day … as i’ve finally finished my FINAL assignment with the ex-company. PHEW!
therefore, if this is approved, they no longer have a hold on me. i’m FREE, FREE, FREEEEEEEEEEE!
now, i can concentrate on my script. YES, YES, YES … my secret little script. yes, yes, yes …
God! i sound like Gollum. incidentally i was mimicking Gollum with the YES, YES, YES!!
anyway, this morning, i was a little bit miserable. i shan’t explain why. a bit of a misunderstanding with the roomie … or is it hooomie (as in housemates? heheheh … ok, i’m just deliriously almost-happy).
so, bought payless card and called my bf from a phone booth. he was very insightful.
i guess, it’s good to have a boyfriend, huh? only … now, that i’m on the other side of 35, should i still be calling him my BOYFRIEND? he’s not exactly a boy, yo!
that’s what the young boys in my office say, yo! YO! YO!
heheheh.
i think it’s upbringing also. there’s this other boy ( i call him boy coz he’s on the younger side of 25), who’s dad is in the army and he doesn’t say YO! or any of that american homey gangsta stuff. he’s just … normal. heheh.
oh, speaking of which … today is the brunei’s defense team anniversary Royal Brunei Armed Forces, it’s called. yup. so, tomorrow’s a holiday.
am thinking of going to the shahbandar forest park, but on second thoughts, maybe not. coz there’s gonna be lots and lots of people out there.
YO!
p/s: i’ve not gotten my period at all this month. stress i guess, but i feel a pimple coming up on my chin. maybe very soon. hmm. sigh.
i don’t know what it is about me these days … but i despair easily. or maybe i’ve always been this way?
i don’t know.
but it’s not good to be like this.
i watched safira this afternoon … on tv, not on youtube. but i couldn’t really relax, bcoz i was expecting the guy-mate to appear or even my girl-mate. then i can’t concentrate and would have to make small talk.
anyway, bcoz one of the guy-mates came home for lunch, and i didn’t know whether he had gone back to work, i wore my scarf. and of course, that’s the main reason i couldn’t relax.
anyway, feel slightly sluggish … tired. i wonder if i’m getting my period soon. should be about this time. maybe this is also the cause for my despondence?
hmmm.
i do miss walking though. maybe this weekend i should go to bukit shahbandar. just me, alone. to explore.
if okay, next time i can ask my cousins or friends/colleagues.
i guess the other reason for my tiredness is thinking that i have to burn the midnight oil tonight to do my assignment. it’s an unfinished project from my previous company. looooong story.
anyway. just makes me feel tired that i have unfinished business.
oh, well.
okay, i know what i can do. CLEAN UP! that always makes me feel good. but not now.
maybe later. heheheheh.
went to big hua ho in gadong today. to get shower gel and envelopes, etc. bought some siew mai and fried chicken also at the supermarket. it’s easy to get parking. somehow. it’s already the 27th. most govt staff would’ve gotten their pay by now. so, i was quite surprised that it wasn’t so packed.
we are getting our salary tomorrow. i hope. not that i need to spend, but it’d be nice to see an increase in my bank acct after the amount of money i had taken out.
as i had posted earlier, i am quite worried that i wouldnt be able to save at this rate.
i slept without aircon last night. didnt wake up sneezing. so maybe my body has begun to regulate itself.
it was drizzling slightly earlier. the downcast sky makes driving so pleasant. as you know, i am driving a car without airconditioning.
anyway, it’s such a change from the extreme heat we have been experiencing here in the capital.
as i went up the stairs, i passed a boy in blue and white baju melayu and songkok getting into a 4WD; prob someone picking him up to go to the sekolah ugama.
i felt kind of happy because it reminded me of home. the kids rushing off to sekolah ugama after lunch. in so many ways, brunei is like malaysia. and that makes me feel … nice. not so homesick, i guess.
one of my guy-mates (okay, that’s how ive decided to term my male housemates) came home for lunch. prob to watch football? i dunno. anyway, i decided to chill first before preparing my lunch.
i have to get something done today. but as usual, procrastinating. argh!
it’s raining tonight in gadong. the first time in ages. it has been so hot, hot, hot. average temperature, i think around 34 degrees C. so thankful to God, so relieved for the gift of rain.
today’s the first time i prayed since moving here. using my qiblah compass, i’ve ascertained the direction towards makkah is at 90. so i performed Maghrib prayers just now. the annoying thing about sharing a bathroom is i gotta be careful. like living in a coed dorm. oh yeah. didn’t i say im in a coed flat? groaaan. well, beggars cant be choosers.
anyway, i cooked some rice today. just had it with some pesto sauce and my aunt’s fried chicken. dropped by her place earlier. i’ve stocked up some food in my room and bought a new kettle, so i don’t hv to leave my room. im thinking of getting a tv, but there’s no point really if i can’t get malaysian tv. obviously i can’t get astro coz i don’t know how long im gonna be here. and theres no aerial socket in my room. but … if the movable aerial can receive malaysian tv, i wouldnt mind. as it is, i hv spent too much already since moving.
the thing about combating depression is to keep on moving, moving, moving. so today, i made a list of things i needed to do.
one to do thing is to remit money by TT at maybank in gadong.
my first time doing it. took out a few hundred and went to the bank. it’s next to Sugar Bun. so, i took out some money from HSBC at Gadong Centrepoint, then went to Maybank. at the counter, the officer gv me a form to fill … then i queued up again. took ages! there were only like less than 5 of us. maybe coz it’s lunch time … i don’t know. so, it’s done. i had to pay $30 per transaction. the charge is not dependent on how much though. apparently you can remit at a non-banking facility for about $8 – 12. but i dont feel too secure doing that. this is ok.
so, then went home and paid some bills online.
at this rate, i will never be able to save enough to go back to school.
maybe it’s my CIMB credit card. hv been spending too much.
the only solution is not to go home too much. the last two times i went home, i really let my credit card rip!
but ive got enough stuff now. i hv a cool handphone, a digital recorder, a camera, a laptop. as far as electronic stuff goes, that’s all i need.
so, i just need to pay this off, and save money for travelling.
as for HSBC, ive made some payment yesterday. then promptly, went to spend it on fabric. LOLOL! but, hey … it’s a necessity. it’s gifts for my aunts. once a year, ok.
so that’s that. now all i need to do is pay off my HSBC credit card and use it for buying my flight ticket home.
sigh.
spendspendspend.
what’s it like living here?
hmmm. slightly boring.
i would hv preferred my own place. at least i hv the freedom to venture beyond this room.
i don’t really watch tv. i don’t want to bump too much into my guy housemates. and my girl housemate goes out a lot. she has a busy social life.
i’m ok just i cant stand the fact that i hv to share the loo with guys. argh. my bf is ok. he’s clean.
anyway. the only thing that makes my day these days is watching safira. as i said, the acting is a bit stilted and the scripts is not that great … but at least it’s something to look forward to. groaaan … am i pathetic or what?
it has been the craziest most awful month for me. had to move house and the movin’ process was really killing me. am now renting a room on the top floor of a walk-up apartment. groaan. okay, it’s only 3 floors, but feels like 5. from a serviced apartment to a walkup flat. hmmm … i’m really movin’ on up! VERTICALLY and PHYSICALLY. if i don’t get toned legs out of this, sigh … i’m gonna be really disappointed!
anyway, have finally moved my bike to this place. singlehandedly stuffed the bike into my friend’s car. amazing. it fits nicely!
this car which im kinda renting from my friend is really a character. she must have bought it from a guy. the aircon’s busted, so most of the time i feel like i’m in a sauna. but the great thing is the DVD touch screen player! whooooaaa, feels like i’m pimpin’ … oh yeah, oh yeah!
and i’ve discovered that there’s a natasha bedingfield video on one of the dvds. coool. my favourite artiste. i love that song, Unwritten. i can listen to it again and again.
on another sadder note … my bf told me his brother is getting engaged yesterday. i don’t why he only told me last minute. prob to him it’s not important that i know. but i got really upset … with him – about US!!
i went on a text messaging tirade. like how im tired of this relationship, and he’d better do something, ie we’d better progress the next time i come home. i want to go to the next level. i want to be engaged. if he’s still in his “i don’t know where this relationship is going” … duh! then, he’s gonna lose me. i’m not kidding. after five years, he should know whether he wants me or not in his life. if he still doesn’t know, then … sayonara.
i’m serious.
the past week has been bad, like i said. i just feel so down about everything … abt being in a dead end job, about having to move, about being here, about not being married, about not having a LIFE!!
plus, i haven’t been praying. the room had been in such a MESS, that i couldn’t find my qiblah compass (or i wasn’t looking hard enough) that i just didn’t get around to praying, except at the office. and i felt really disorientated and heavy because of this. the time i actually got to pray, i felt such a relief. now, i feel God is truly the One who listens.
last night i was so miserable, i think i went to sleep crying. then, i had a dream. my research proposal or project or something like that, was accepted by the swedish embassy (i don’t know why swedish) and i felt so good about myself, i felt that now im sooo raring to go.
when i woke up, i realised that i do have something to give, i do have something to do.
so today, i went around settling some stuff. bought some things to make my life here a bit better, so that i can concentrate on my work.
oh … and a girl’s next best thing … RETAIL THERAPY!!!
i went to explore the city in the sauna on wheels, and found the way to Plaza Athirah, and of course … heheh … bought some kain (fabric), for my aunts. so now i have enough already for everyone. well, except my other aunt, but i don’t think im gonna give her anything. she’s got rich kids. hahahahhaha.
i bought a little kettle for my room coz i’m just too lazy to go all the way to the kitchen to make my green tea.
i find that the way i can create is to be pure. even the food i take. by pure i mean, not organic etc … coz hey, they are too expensive. but not to eat too much rice and meat.
so, today, i stocked up on tuna spreads so i can eat with crackers while im working. and also, some ginger tea to give me that boost. and bought wholemeal linguini and pesto to eat with tuna in oil. i just want to eat simple stuff.
hopefully things will get better.
i know that i will only feel on top of things when reading and writing and doing research … generally making the wheels turn, etc.
Insyallah, things will be better.
it’s so … interesting … that the other day, i felt so grateful for the food that i ate, and I really thanked God for His bounty, his rezeki.
amin.
i love it when malay guys wear the baju melayu, with samping and songkok. that’s when they look really handsome. seriously sexy. hahhahahaha.
