will said he loves megan … sort of but weird RTB cut off the scene. maybe coz they were gonna kiss … groaaan … censorship!

anyway, i felt kind of … sad and happy all at the same time … and grateful.

i feel like, i’m so blessed to have someone who cares about me. but at the same time, i feel sad that i don’t know whether we are going to end up together. and i feel like we won’t. it seems … impossible. because my bf doesn’t seem to beleive it. i feel like … we are growing further apart although it seems like we are going closer.

at the moment, i am just collecting all these feelings of love, adoration, concern … for that cold winter season, for that rainy day. for when i go to yet another country.

this is it. this is my stepping stone. and i guess i have to go it alone.