had another all nighter with my bf last night. it was great but i ended up feeling sad. talking about relationships again.

my bf is still not ready to go where i want to go, and i am slowly finding that it’s ok if he doesn’t coz that means we are not meant to be together … so, i shouldn’t put my hopes on him too much. in fact, i don’t … not anymore. and i’m opening my heart bit by bit to the possibility that there might be someone else out there.

i told him, if you believe in a relationship, you have to fight for it. if you don’t, and you feel like you just want to wait and see … that means, that relationship is not important enough in your scheme of things … and therefore, it’s very likely that the relationship will not be able to sustain itself as the ties that binds two people are not strong enough to weather the onslaught that will definitely come its way.

my bf, at the moment, is still thinking of himself, his survival …

to love honestly, you have to get out of yourself and be willing to sacrifice for the other person, for the relationship … if not, your real partner is yourself.